SecretsI can't always tellThe difference betweenSecond thoughts& Depressive tendencies.
I'll Say It In BoldLet's go insaneAnd accept everyFault and dangerOur future shallTroubles us with.Together & forever,I'll remind you howSanity disappearedBecause love like thisWas too insane to exist.I'll hold your heartEven when we ceaseTo exist on Earth,For even as bonesI can still care to love.Along the wayI shall always be,Whether insaneOr only semi-sane:I'll go crazy with you.
Suicidally SelflessThere's no rush in my heartUntil the fear sets in.I don't do it for adrenaline,And not for attention;I do it because I feel I need it,But I stop for you.I can let go of this world,I am unafraid.I can't bear you not letting go,I am terrified.When I'm gone, I want the worldTo live to its fullest,For here I feel empty as a selfBut inside others...I live now so you can live lifeTo its absolute fullest.I can die when I want,I want to try.I can't let you go too,I won't try:[I can't try hard enoughTo succeedWhen your life clingsTo my heart.]
I've Spilled My Love On A Page Of PoetryMy paper heart bleedsWith my love for you;Every time you speak,Your words spill like inkAcross my dampened heart.The words written insideNo longer matter, forYour ink is pure emotion:Speechless as they fade;I am speechless to describeHow much I love you, andI am speechless of how muchI don't mind losing words.For they are lost in my love to you;For they are lost in the loveMy heart bled onto this paper,And they are lost, these words,In the ink you speak to me.This love isn't the kind for poetry.We can lose our words when ink spillsBecause we know in our heartsWhat is always meant to be said;I don't need poetry to tell you this:I love you.
Smiles Inside My AbyssI drain my abilityTo simply feel humanWith the fear thatThe world isn't happy.So I fill the voidWith the smiles I cause,Sent from the deepEmptiness forbidding mine.
Introduction to the Why in SuicideImagine what it takesFor someone to drag themselfOff the cliff of life,And into the harsh waters of death?When one's mindTurns on the body,Causing it to harm itselfUntil it's too numb to feel.When one's lifeIs so hard to handle,That the only escapeIs to just end everything.When one's enemiesCannot be forgiven,Regrets and sorrow formIn an impossibly irreversible sense.When one's familyDoesn't understand,So the person feels likeThey must punish themself.When one's lossMakes life impossible,The grief of living withoutForces him/her to meet again.When one's lonlinessBrings them to the cliff of suicide,Imagine how beautifulThe deathly water must feel.